Why I am scared of returning to medical school
I am afraid of the sterilization of my sensibilities.
Of the pressure to conform, become swept into the undulation of the sea of medical students
Of being told to stop being curious or ask questions or write in a certain way
I am afraid of my freedom of spirit being taken away
Of my sensitivities being taken as weaknesses
Of being asked to grow a thick skin in the face of pain and suffering
Of being questioned why you are here
Chief Fellow, Outpatient Psychiatry Service, Boston Children’s Hospital
Clinical Fellow in Psychiatry, Harvard Medical School
Fellow, Center for Bioethics, Harvard Medical School
The first patient slipped away in August of my intern year, during our exhausting initiation into medicine wards. His primary care doctor called a few days after his discharge to tell me that he was found dead shortly after leaving our hospital. Since this patient had few relations and the city morgue was backlogged for months, we would not expect to hear the results of his autopsy and would never know the cause of his death.
Highlights of Academy Members
Eugene V. Beresin, M.D. is Professor of Psychiatry at Harvard Medical School. He received a M.A. in Philosophy and M.D. from the University of Pennsylvania. He served as Director of Child and Adolescent Psychiatry Residency Training Program at Massachusetts General Hospital and McLean Hospital from 1985-2013.
Dr. Beresin is Executive Director of the new Clay Center for Young Healthy Minds that is devoted to promoting the emotional and behavioral wellbeing of young people by providing innovative education about mental health for parents, those who work with youth and young adults and for young people themselves.